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Created on Tue, 22 Mar 2022

Oceania was at war with Eurasia: therefore Oceania had always been at war with Eurasia.

I think of this blog sometimes as Winston's diary. One day I will probably pay the price of having it and pouring my thoughts here. I can hide it but should I?

I censor myself to think thoughts that may matter. I don't talk about ideas with people around me, other than some very close circle of people that I trust are not the secret police. I'm not paranoid (yet). I enjoy and must be thankful of the freedoms I have in "THE WEST". I must feel the privilege of being a young white male. Some days I do actually feel it now.

I'm a member of the Outer party, working for one of the Biggest Brothers humanity has known. As such, I get almost daily reminder what I should support and what I should oppose. Today I must support Ukraine and hate Russia. Yesterday I shouted that people should get vaccines and raged that the ones who don't are why we still don't have our freedoms. It was so sad indeed (as Mr Gates said) that Omicron provided better protection. Now it's time for another terrible war. We were always at that war. I must hate Russian music, Russian culture, I must not use кирилица for it's now forbidden. Unless I use it for support of Україна which I love.

But it's not the people that I must care about - it's the ideas of certain nations. One is an angel, the other is the devil. I can now post hate and call for violence on Russia. And I must do it, it's my privilege so I must! I must become an expert in military operations with a 24/7 bombardment of "news" that are real and must resist the propaganda of the other side. Our news are definitely true, they are fact-checked by us, of course. The other news are certainly propaganda. The world is black and white, there is no gray. Some days I do actually believe it now.

Doublethink means the power of holding two contradictory beliefs in one’s mind simultaneously, and accepting both of them.

We all love Ukraine. We also all love the gender equality. And then again - Ukraine is allowing women and children to leave the country but men have to stay and fight.

Can you picture the opposite? Can you imagine the outcry "The West" would have if women had to stay in the country by mandate, to have to fight and be killed while men can leave? The patriarchy! The oppression! But now - it's okay. We don't talk about this. What matters is that women get equal representation in IT and we are still not there! Not in mining, construction or war. Not in the dangerous positions. But why am I even mentioning this?! Am I crazy? This is not the point now! I must repeat the narrative, don't distract the message with whataboutisms!

Zelensky is a hero, anything that he is doing, anything that he has ever done or will do will always be the best. He can't be wrong. Even when sending men to die, it must be an honor to protect the glorious nation of Ukraine! Putin is wrong. Putin is crazy. There is nothing that can change my mind about this. Moreover, I will go and will convince other people that this is the case. Some days I actually do it now.

And when memory failed and written records were falsified—when that happened, the claim of the Party to have improved the conditions of human life had got to be accepted, because there did not exist, and never again could exist, any standard against which it could be tested.

We've always known that COVID could've been engineered. We have always allowed free thought and research to flourish. We've always mandated masks. Masks have been here since at least Roman times, perhaps even egyptians wore them. Haven't you seen drawings in the pyramids? What an uncultured swine you are. They are useful. They are effective even if worn for 6 months. They protect us. Don't you want to be protected? Besides - why are we even discussing this now? There is a WAR now. You care about a mask!? Oh, poor you - people are DYING, support that!


This is the most important conflict. There may or may not be other conflicts in the world. There may or may have not been other conflicts in the world inflicted by our Party. Our Party has never committed war crimes. Our Party does not support military conflicts or benefits financially from them - we want peace. Don't you see? Don't you believe now that 2 + 2 is indeed, and has always been: 5

The choice for mankind lies between freedom and happiness and for the great bulk of mankind, happiness is better.

Oh, I don't care. It may be 5 or 6 or even 40. Give me my soma. Let me drown the bliss of love, in travels and adventures now while it's allowed. Summer is coming. Winter is somewhere else. Restrictions are out. The Party will protect me. Truth is irrelevant anyways. Let me buy amulets that will protect me from the evil energies. Let me enjoy the days of sun, let me be thankful I'm not in Eurasia, where the only terrible war is. Let it not spread. Oh, Party, let it not spread! Let it not destroy this wonderful world. I will cry when needed. I will empathize with the tragedies. I will say the words that you tell me and I will actually believe them. I will not think thoughts I shouldn't. I don't want to be drafted in a conflict. You are my master... Sorry, we don't use this anymore (because of certain histories in certain parts of the Party which you must know now)- You are my primary. I'm your secondary.

Stupidity was as necessary as intelligence, and as difficult to attain.